my younger son was still in high school.
i moved in to a place by MYSELF for a few months
(for the first time EVER)
and spent much of that time in the fetal position.
it's also when my pussy (and everything else)
started to wake the F up.
for quite some time (like years)
i felt i was missing something.
so i went on a quest to FIND it.
what the IT was- i wasn't yet sure.
but i knew part of it had to do with my sexuality
what is being IN love vs. loving?
i wasn't sure i knew what these were.
i asked many people what it all meant to THEM.
i asked sooooo many questions.
i never (& still haven't) stopped asking questions.
living on my own for the first time brought new challenges.
i no longer had a fuck buddy-
i felt lucky to have had a man who was always game
(aka broken and numb pussy. we'll get to that)
lots of -mind blown emoji- info
jade eggs. orgasms beyond the clit.
i committed to a 30 day self-pleasuring journey.
wow. i had no idea how numb i was.
what my insides actually felt like.
i'm just NOW feeling my cervix?
and THAT was what started to crack me OPEN
i ALSO knew for fucking sure
that i needed to experience a relationship with a man who could COMMUNICATE.
in being faced with my newly awakening (and horny) self
a friend suggested i check out dating sites.
the last time i was single
i fully freaked at that thought
but searched HARD to find a site
where all of the men weren't holding: fish and/or a beer.
i landed on Spiritual Singles.
bumped out my radius to THE ENTIRE WORLD
and had some fab adventures 🙂
then i landed on a guy who was close
there was a video of him dancing on his profile.
i wanted to connect- in some way- w the dancing man.
i reached out but never heard from him.
we connected immediately- like really connected.
met in person 10 days later.
and now we're almost @ a year + half 🙂
after 26 years of marriage
some might wonder WHY the HELL i would
jump in to another relationship?
it/he felt/feels amazing.
he could (and can) fucking communicate
and not just thru words (talking)
but thru writing. touch. ahhhhhhh. dreamy.
that's only part of the magic.