Let’s Start From The Beginning…
the beginning was an ending.
but isn't it always?

in 2020-
i left my marriage.
moved out.
my younger son was still in high school.

i moved in to a place by MYSELF for a few months
(for the first time EVER)
and spent much of that time in the fetal position.

it's also when my pussy (and everything else)
started to wake the F up.

for quite some time (like years)
i felt i was missing something.
so i went on a quest to FIND it.
what the IT was- i wasn't yet sure.

but i knew part of it had to do with my sexuality
and the question(s):
what IS love?
what is being IN love vs. loving?
i wasn't sure i knew what these were.

i asked many people what it all meant to THEM.
i asked sooooo many questions.
i never (& still haven't) stopped asking questions.

living on my own for the first time brought new challenges.
i no longer had a fuck buddy-
i felt lucky to have had a man who was always game
but i certainly WASN'T-
(aka broken and numb pussy. we'll get to that)

during that time
lots of -mind blown emoji- info
dropped into my life-
jade eggs. orgasms beyond the clit.
and oh, so much more.

i committed to a 30 day self-pleasuring journey.
wow. i had no idea how numb i was.
what my insides actually felt like.
what the HELL?!
i'm just NOW feeling my cervix?
fucking A.

and THAT was what started to crack me OPEN
-literally- haha

i ALSO knew for fucking sure
that i needed to experience a relationship with a man who could COMMUNICATE.

fast forward . . .
in being faced with my newly awakening (and horny) self
a friend suggested i check out dating sites.
the last time i was single
did they even EXIST?

i fully freaked at that thought
but searched HARD to find a site
where all of the men weren't holding: fish and/or a beer.
(no judgement)

i landed on Spiritual Singles.
bumped out my radius to THE ENTIRE WORLD
met some quality men
and had some fab adventures ๐Ÿ™‚

then i landed on a guy who was close
(4-5 hours ish close)
there was a video of him dancing on his profile.
i wanted to connect- in some way- w the dancing man.

i reached out but never heard from him.
until i did.
months later.

we connected immediately- like really connected.
met in person 10 days later.
and now we're almost @ a year + half ๐Ÿ™‚

after 26 years of marriage
some might wonder WHY the HELL i would
jump in to another relationship?

i was ready.
it/he felt/feels amazing.
he could (and can) fucking communicate
and not just thru words (talking)
but thru writing. touch. ahhhhhhh. dreamy.

that's only part of the magic.
but we'll get to that.