holy fuck
i wonder what the hell is happening to me sometimes.
like i'm in a top loader washing machine
getting swished
back and forth.
random weird things hurting.
random weird thoughts.
dreams.
what are the options?
add hormones?
just deal?
get all of your lady parts removed?
drink heavily?
start doing (if you haven't already) mass amounts of drugs?
this force
creeps (or sometimes SLAMS) in.
changing how i smell.
what i want to do
or NOT do.
who i want
or DON'T want to be around.
i started a 2 week Real Food Reset.
basically just eating whole things. no animal products or packaged things or alcohol.
loosely.
it's been a little harder than i thought
tho quite light-shedding
on how jammed in some habits i am.
AND how i need a variety of many things in my life.
(this i already knew- tho my body is speaking a little louder about it. ha!)
i'm doing this
with the intention of resetting some things
giving my liver a breather
and hopefully
feeling mo better
mo balanced
and less tossed around by the forces within.
what i've noticed
is that if you really want something
you have to actually want it-
which is woven to and with Commitment.
(random tongue twister- Committing to Consistent Curiosity- Creates :))
no
desire is NOT a dirty word
(but commitment sometimes is! ha!)
it is a motivating force
spring-boarding us
to wherever-we-want-to-be-ness.
some things
yes
take time to find the way
the answers
the untangling of the foundation of change
that we thought was earthquake/hurricane-proof.
but if the Want
is worth it
it's worth the wait.
the journey
the adventure
to find it- meet it- be it.
however-long-it-takes
commitment to consistent curiosity.
and woven in to THAT
is the option to change your mind.
the well-worth-it-journey
To Your Desire
may end up landing you in a place you never expected
because curiosity is playful and UNattached to outcome
and you'll be so freakin' stoked you made it.
only to find a New Desire
sending you on another fab adventure
to places that are mapped out as you go.
who'da thought
the absolute DESIRE
to figure myself out
would've landed me here?
#awesomeness
!!!!